Benediction for a Mended Heart

I’ve had some ups and downs,

and I was afraid to fall.

But you answered the call.

So consumed with my innermost thoughts,

Struggling to connect the dots…

But thank you.

Because there’s a lot I’d be facing if you didn’t come through.

-N

Winter

I’ve kept my heart sealed,

Air tight so that it wouldn’t take off at the first sign of delight.

But now it’s 6 o’clock and black as midnight, yet you’ve disappeared.

This silence invokes me to violence.

-N

Come & Go

Night fall calls me.

Beckons me with open arms with the promise of more.

Enthralls me with it’s sweet words and-

But it’s temporary.

Like most things this pleasurable feeling is temporary.

-N

Narcoleptic

My eyesight is weak.

Littered with tears and scratches.

My heart is heavy, and tight.

Filled to the brim with spite.

My dreams didn’t come true.

The prince never came,

Instead of fair-game I became framed.

I was held back by choices.

I should’ve ignored those voices…

Honestly, the pills look inviting,

The black abyss seems a peaceful existence.

I should take my pleasure in the unknown void.

Isn’t that what we search for anyway? Peace and quiet?

Maybe I should skip to the end to avoid the constant pain,

Pay for the arraign I have surely obtained.

-N

Honestly

Let it burn.

The signs were ignored,

The people were left to fend for themselves,

Left malnourished.

You can’t easily right this wrong.

-N

The Unseen

I wonder,

If you ever think be-yonder.

I stand in front of this mirror,

Unsure of this face in front of me.

I think I’ve lost the sight.

Something’s not right.

M’aimeras-tu si tu voyais le vrai moi ?

Just a question,

Or if you’re afraid, it could be a suggestion.

-N

There’s No Title For This Pain…

Words fail me.

My mind won’t rest,

And let me be.

I can’t breathe.

Trying to see.

Hard to believe,

What the world has done to me.

Tears run down my face,

Not much more I can take.

-NR

Une Muse Invisible

You left me for a while.

But you came back.

Moving like a runningback.

I have no slack.

I can’t believe what you’ve made me feel.

What I’ve written,

What you’ve made me do.

I still haven’t truly processed what you’ve made me do.

My heart was broken.

I want you in too many ways.

I can’t say no though.

It’s not good for me.

This is a drug.

But I have to take another hit.

Just once more.

Then I promise I’ll go.

Promets juste que tu-

-NR

A Cover…Ou un sale secret

Yeah, you read it correctly.

I’m only saying what other people are thinking.

Of what others are feeling.

What lies within all of us.

What we are afraid to let out.

What’s the worst that could happen?

It’s okay,

I’m like the rest of you.

I’m the coward that pretends to be appalled,

Secretly marveling at the tales being spun.

Does that make me a deviant?

Tu pourrais être rude c’est ce que je veux

Look at me.

An absolute mess because of my thoughts centering you.

-NR

An Unreal Request

My friends tell me I’m crazy about this dream I once had.
They all laugh and mock till my foolish heart bleeds,
For the love it truly needs.
I dreamt of a man,
who took my hand,
and told me I needn’t do much,
just get used to his touch.
How could I?
It was all elusive to me.
you see, love never came to me.
How could I just be?
Yet he whispered in my ear,
told me things that made me shiver,
that promised to deliver.
It felt so real that to this day,
I sit here waiting,
for my dream man.