Thunder

The way the music pounds,

Vibrates within my body,

Caresses me as a lover would.

…I feel the rain coming.

-N

Benediction for a Mended Heart

I’ve had some ups and downs,

and I was afraid to fall.

But you answered the call.

So consumed with my innermost thoughts,

Struggling to connect the dots…

But thank you.

Because there’s a lot I’d be facing if you didn’t come through.

-N

Two Books in One Month!

Hello everyone!

I’ve been so busy! But never fear I am still here. I pleased to announce that I will be putting out two books in the month of January. (God willing) If it has to go to February I’ll be okay with it, but for now I’m trying to be positive about everything. LOL. This will make seven books total. In three years I would have published three poetry books and four fiction books! I never thought I would be able to put out my own stuff but I’m so grateful that I can, and be self-published too through Amazon! I hope that I can entice you all to read my fiction book.

*I’ll post it here when it’s released.

My goal for 2023 is to continue writing. To continue expressing myself in the wonderful way of prose. My goal is to lose a little more weight, but not stress about it. My goal is to finally allow myself the chance to open up when it comes to love. I can admit that I’ve been a bit standoffish when even the idea is mentioned in my presence, but since I’m being honest I thought it best to start here. I love you all, and if I don’t post anymore this weekend, then I want to say Happy New Year!

Stay safe, and I love you all.

-N

Sable

I stand transfixed by your movements.

Paralyzed with the thought of discovery.

-N

Something This Way Blows…

It seems my time in purgatory has come to an end.

I’m drained, weak, and don’t know if I’m on the mend.

Am I human?

-N

Perspicacious

Of my time.

No longer tolerant of wasting anything that’s mine.

I need more than a tingling of the spine.

Take a seat, as I sip this wine.

-N

Birthday

It’s funny how a year can change you.

Your outlook on people, places and circumstances shift.

The hope you had, the love you hoped for, the-

Yeah.

I love birthdays.

Simply because I’ve grown wiser and hopefully stronger.

Because even though I struggled, I persevered enough to see another year.

That in itself is a win.

I’ve finally gotten to a point where I have no expectations from people.

And since then I’ve become the happiest, simply because I control the outcome.

This is such a liberating feeling that I-

Yeah.

-N

City

I hate myself a little less.

No longer stressed,

Repressed, by the recesses of my mind.

My thoughts only aligned for a brief amount of time.

-N

…Finally

It took some time,

Lost friends and family along the way, and it made me realize,

What’s important.

It took a lot of self-reflection,

Periods of not knowing,

To understand that I do know.

Thirty-one seems like a small feat to some,

But to me I’ve lived for enough lifetimes to come.

-N

This. Here. Now. I-

I don’t know how I feel about love.

I see the desperation around me.

The need for people to belong, never to be.

Why does that baffle me?

I’m astounded, flabbergasted, embarrassed.

Not for me, but for you.

I hope my befuddlement will one day hold the clue.

That I seem to need,

So that I can be free.

Stuck in this prison of my own making.

I don’t see the need for companionship.

Have I been burned too many times?

Have I missed my one person,

My destiny,

My sign?

I have no shrine.

I used to have dreams of how love would go.

But that turned out-

No.

I’m afraid of not feeling what everyone else does.

Am I broken?

Then why do I feel free?

Spreading my legs and throwing my head back in joy.

I’m not shackled down,

Ready to drown,

Packed to leave town.

-NR