It’s in the words.
This dream confused me.
For the life of me, I can’t let it be.
Our stomachs pressed together.
Dur et doux.
Why would that stick out to me?
Why should I be turned on by your stomach against my own?
My heart was racing, thighs and panties wet,
Ready to be your pet.
It was then I paid attention.
You whispered words in my ear.
Nonsensical, fast, slow, words.
With every word you spoke,
My mouth watered.
My skin pulsed.
My eyes dilated.
I wish I could remember the words you said to me.
I wish I could hold them close for the lonely nights.
I wish I could carry them with me like I do my sight.
It was the words.
“..My insecurities, my devious nature, make it go away.” -Sola Sistim
I’ve come to the realization that I need love.
Not a relationship,
Not a good feeling,
I can’t find it,
I’m constantly in search of it,
Can you help me?
Is it at the bottom of a bottle,
Is is wrapped up in a man?
Is it the sexual gratification one can obtain so freely?
Give me more.
Give me something
something that ascends sex,
something more than emotional.
Give me something spiritual.
Give me a light at the end of the tunnel.
Promise to never leave,
Promise to beg,
To never be filled with greed.
for what I see.
“The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core of strength within you that survives all hurt.” -Max Lerner
So how’s it going? I’m good, just you know fighting a cold and all. But other than that I’m just peachy. Every time I get so excited because of the holidays and the simple Christmas (Or Holiday depending on what you celebrate) joys. For instance, I love the cold. Some people don’t like the chilly weather,and it makes them grumpy.
Not I, Not I.
I love pea-coats, boots, pumpkin spice latte’s, Sound Of Music, and anything else that resembles cold. I like receiving gifts,(ESPECIALLY THE BLACK FRIDAY SHOPPING) but as I get older the one thing I enjoy immensely is giving to others, and just being happy. I used to think that I had to have a gift from others in order to have a good holiday. But I realized that I like not only buying myself things, but not to expect too much from others.
Now wait a second.
That may sound bitter, or resentful but it’s not.(At least from my point of view) I love the holidays, but one thing I learned is when you set goals for yourself, accomplished them, and even treated yourself for finishing said goals you become content. What I’m trying to say is that at first give the gift of you to yourself before you start expecting items from others. You will not only be happy, but at peace.
“Leaders aren’t born they are made. And they are made just like anything else, through hard work. And that’s the price we’ll have to pay to achieve that goal, or any goal.”
So I told you that I would keep you updated on grad school, my classes, and such. Well grad school at Strayer University doesn’t officially start until October 6th but my professors are sending their syllabus ahead of time, just so students can be prepared. I looked at mine last night, and although it’s a lot of work (I mean a lot) I know I can do it. It’s terrifying,(because you want to graduate with a master’s) exciting, and challenging, but I’m always up to a challenge.
I hope you feel the same. If you’re reading this and like challenges, find something that will challenge your mind. Whether it be school, work, travel, a relationship (that in itself is challenging). Eleanor Roosevelt had said I believe do something everyday that scares you. I believe if you stick to that mantra, you will shock yourself at what you can handle. I guess that’s why I enjoy education. Because, In a way it always is challenging me to push my mind, to expand my horizons and culture.