So today marks my 3 year anniversary with WordPress! (The longest relationship I’ve ever had) Some people would shrug it off, or say that it’s no big deal, but to me it is. I’ve had a lot of good things happen to me this year in 2015, and getting that brief notification brightened my already sunny day. I’ve lost a bit of my steam recently, and I think the reason is because I’ve been suffering from writers block. (And by writer’s block I mean staring at a blank word document screen as if it’s retarded or something) I was suffering from not finding enough words to say, and that always scares me. I was feeling this way until I heard some music.
And by music I mean Ne-Yo latest sex themed cd.
Now some people find inspiration from the strangest things; I know food is one of many inspirational ways I get a word or two out; but it was something about these songs, and the underlying message. Now to the average person it’s about meeting someone, falling in love, and the actual act of love. Paired with some upbeat gym songs, you’ve got an average 2015 top Billboard album. But maybe it’s the adult-ness (if that’s a word) to the songs created; It seems as if his music has reached another level, and I along with others are able to participate in this music-driven journey.
Or maybe it’s me. I feel that I’ve matured and reached another level. I have evolved, especially in my writing, and you guys were here to see me become more skilled at a hobby that I love. I hope you all are good. I hope the past year has been good so far, and that you too have evolved into the person you want to become.
“You don’t know me but it’s not too late…” -Tom Swoon Feat. Amba Shepherd (From Not Too Late Bassnectar remix)
Firstly happy holidays. I love December. Apart from it being my second favorite month of the whole year,(my birthday is the first) I love the whole giving, Christmas, and giving cheer. I also love the amounts of foods being served. But I decided to do something different this year. While everyone else is contemplating eating twice the amount of the their body mass for basically the whole month I’ve decided to get, if possible healthier. I love the fatty delicious foods my mom places on the table; However I also love skinny jeans. I think that with everything you have to find a balance. Lately I have been way too unbalanced but I’ve decided no more.And who says you have to wait until January 1st to set unrealistic goals for yourself, when you can start now? I’ve been wanting to lose a serious amount of weight for some time now. My sister has encouraged me and helped me continuously by saying to me,
“Nikki, you can do it. I believe in you.”
So what am I doing? throwing away all the junk food in my house and re-upping my gym membership. She even picked out songs for me, that she said, “Was all me, and that I would understand once I was in the gym.” I could cry from how thankful I am to her. Well world I’m back.
“I don’t think an hour would hurt…” -Christina Aguilera (Morning Dessert Intro From Bionic CD)
Firstly I know that I can be late to some things but have you heard this song from Christina’s Bionic album?
Well you need to get on it.
Anyways as I was listening to the song (And it’s lovely sexual undertones) I was thinking:
It’s time to join the real world.
You see, I came home from college, and learned some things. One of the many lessons I learned was everything is never as it seems. I came believing one thing but was completely blindsided. As I mentioned in a previous post (yesterday’s) you need to already be prepared for anything that comes,(good or bad) and be able to not only make yourself happy, but realize that people may not see you or a certain situation a certain way.
Sadly I did not feel this way last year. Even though I preached one message, I still felt that I would have that human savior that would work as my Clark Kent no matter what.
What girl wouldn’t?
However my eyes were opened,messages were revealed (good and bad) and I didn’t know how to handle them.
I’m so glad that I’ve come to these realizations. Maybe it was meant for me to learn these lessons. Maybe it was meant to be dealt with before the new year. Whatever the case, I am now, and will forever be;