It took some time,
Lost friends and family along the way, and it made me realize,
It took a lot of self-reflection,
Periods of not knowing,
To understand that I do know.
Thirty-one seems like a small feat to some,
But to me I’ve lived for enough lifetimes to come.
There’s a discord,
between me and reality.
I’m living but I’m really not.
I’m breathing, but it’s artificial.
I keep feeling stuck,
But I have no idea on who to call.
I’m having another sleepless night
There’s a war raging within me.
I keep fighting the deep abyss,
I keep fighting gravity.
I keep soldiering on.
I keep walking on.
I love you,
I always will.
You reminded me,
to be myself.
You told me that I could do anything,
And I believed it.
They tell you what you want to hear;
But you never did.
You’ve always kept your word.
You’ve told me in confidence that you felt trapped.
You told me that the world was closing in on you,
And you needed a place to be free.
I now know what you mean.
Now I know what it means.
I want to be free,
But there always seems to be a fee.
People hold you back,
Sometimes get you off track,
Leaving you to pick up the slack.
“I know not who you are, nor how I came to find you, but I must say…Hi. How ya doin?” -Flynn Rider (Tangled)
So you know that moment when you think someone is about to say (or do) something profound and they don’t?
Well that just happened to me today. And boy was it horrible. The situation, (which details I will not bore you with) got me thinking about The Peter Principle. If you’re not familiar with the PP let me break it down for you: A person that will reach his or her highest level of incompetence and continue to stay in that place.(And boy have I seen that frequently)
I guess what I’m trying to say, If I’m saying anything at all is that, is that everybody has their specific duty in life. Some are meant to break barriers, some are meant to be leaders; and some are meant to be mother’s and teachers who guide the future generations in the right direction; but I think that we should have the common sense to at least know who is placed where, especially in a corporation where people’s lives, and livelihood is at stake.
Or maybe we’ve reached out level of incompetence, and are stuck.
This cool breeze feels cool on my skin.
Heavenly respite where have you been?
This feels so good it could be considered a sin.
I don’t know how or when,
but this feels like the start of life again.
I just want to take this time,
revel in this wine,
That’s got me twisted in this vine.
Do you mind?
The leaves are rust,
reminds me of the summer must,
the complete and utter sunshine and trust.
This evening landscape,
Is more than just a pretty escape.
Thankful for everyone’s sake.
“The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core of strength within you that survives all hurt.” -Max Lerner
So how’s it going? I’m good, just you know fighting a cold and all. But other than that I’m just peachy. Every time I get so excited because of the holidays and the simple Christmas (Or Holiday depending on what you celebrate) joys. For instance, I love the cold. Some people don’t like the chilly weather,and it makes them grumpy.
Not I, Not I.
I love pea-coats, boots, pumpkin spice latte’s, Sound Of Music, and anything else that resembles cold. I like receiving gifts,(ESPECIALLY THE BLACK FRIDAY SHOPPING) but as I get older the one thing I enjoy immensely is giving to others, and just being happy. I used to think that I had to have a gift from others in order to have a good holiday. But I realized that I like not only buying myself things, but not to expect too much from others.
Now wait a second.
That may sound bitter, or resentful but it’s not.(At least from my point of view) I love the holidays, but one thing I learned is when you set goals for yourself, accomplished them, and even treated yourself for finishing said goals you become content. What I’m trying to say is that at first give the gift of you to yourself before you start expecting items from others. You will not only be happy, but at peace.