My friends tell me I’m crazy about this dream I once had.
They all laugh and mock till my foolish heart bleeds,
For the love it truly needs.
I dreamt of a man,
who took my hand,
and told me I needn’t do much,
just get used to his touch.
How could I?
It was all elusive to me.
you see, love never came to me.
How could I just be?
Yet he whispered in my ear,
told me things that made me shiver,
that promised to deliver.
It felt so real that to this day,
I sit here waiting,
for my dream man.
There’s a hypocrite in the room.
Lies are being swept under the broom.
Contention lies here.
Forewarn your conscience of coming near.
They speak of blasphemy,
Yet partake of the forbidden majesty.
They talk of practicing peace,
But their homes are filled with strife, and decease.
Beware, all who dare.
There’s a discord,
between me and reality.
I’m living but I’m really not.
I’m breathing, but it’s artificial.
I keep feeling stuck,
But I have no idea on who to call.
I’m having another sleepless night
There’s a war raging within me.
I keep fighting the deep abyss,
I keep fighting gravity.
I keep soldiering on.
I keep walking on.
I’ve said I’m lost before.
I’ve said that I don’t know where I am.
I’ve said before that I can’t breathe.
What do you think it means?
I feel like crying, but have run out of tears.
I feel like yelling but my voice has become hoarse.
I’m trying to take a deep breath,
But I can’t.
There is a layer of bricks on my chest.
I can’t cope.
You’re apprehensively aroused.
This unemotional object that I’ve seem to become.
woman I’ve become.
You look genuinely perplexed as to why I have become this soulless robot.
As if the dirty thong in your pants pocket wasn’t obvious enough on laundry day.
Avez-vous essuye les jus de la chatte sale votre visage quand vous etes venu chez moi embrasser?
Cat got your tongue?
Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned they say.
Hell hath no fury like a woman.
Hell hath no fury.
Huh, It fits.
I’ve got this new joy,
I can’t describe.
And it’s not based on someone.
No one paid for it.
No one showed me additional affection.
There was no conditional love offered.
It feels weird.
Being happy because of me.
Have you ever been here?
I’m a novice,
Tell me you can hear me clear.
I want to know you’re secrets.
What makes you tick.
What turns you on,
What’ll keep you home.
I need direct confirmation,
A strong foundation.
Not an aberration.
Night falls, and she feels awakened.
The goddess yawns and stretches.
The start of her day is here.
She looks for the weak,
The innocent minded,
The mentally insane.
Those are her comrades for the night.
She breathes in the fresh piss-scented air.
She laughs joyously upon hearing the sounds
Of debauchery, and whispered dares.
“Je veux baiser!” she yells through the alleyways.
“Je veux le chaos!” she screams to anyone who will listen.
She cried for an angel,
But received a demon.
And for that she will have her vengeance.
I love you,
I always will.
You reminded me,
to be myself.
You told me that I could do anything,
And I believed it.
They tell you what you want to hear;
But you never did.
You’ve always kept your word.
You’ve told me in confidence that you felt trapped.
You told me that the world was closing in on you,
And you needed a place to be free.
I now know what you mean.
Now I know what it means.
I want someone to bite,
I need you to give me a task.
I need you to open the flask.
I need you to tell me your fantasy.
Then I’ll know my destiny.