The Dreamer’s Reality

I love being self-employed. A podcaster, romance writer, and poet.

It’s fun stuff.

However, while it is fun, you also need the monetary side of things to create such great works. Someone mentioned to me on TikTok the other day that I should activate listener support. Now because I am new to the podcast world, I had no idea that was even a thing until I opened up the money side of the Anchor app. I thought, “Oh great! I can unlock ads that will pay me in addition to allowing my listeners the chance to donate for the podcast to keep going.”

Venturing into the monetization aspect of the podcast caused my mind to drift into a thoughtful, yet necessary tangent about money and passions.

As a rule I hate asking for money. I’ve always felt that people tend to judge whenever you ask. I’ve seen it countless times in my life. I’ve even seen it destroy several relationships. Personally I was never this way. If I had it, I would give it no questions asked. I always thought a person had to be in a tight bind to ask for money.

When I gave money I never cared. I never even felt that someone was using me because I always figured that God would make sure any wrong was righted. I also think it comes with being an oldest sibling. I’ve always given the last of my money, food, smart devices, etc., to my sister or friends if she/he/they needed it. I’ve given to former classmates on my college campus who needed but was too shy to admit to it.

I’m not saying it to get praise.

I’m saying it to show how little I care about the issue. I am the same way towards my friends and family. I’ve been in difficult situations so I know what it’s like to need something from someone without the hundreds of questions and pitying looks. I always told myself that I would make sure to always be kind to others and if I had it, I would give it. Simply because I knew that one day good karma would come back to me, be it in family harmony, good relationships or an easy-going life.

I’m an honest woman. And I am proud. (Not prideful mind you but content with what I have) I hate asking for anything, especially when it comes to my profession. I work hard on my podcast and books. But then I realized that this wouldn’t be borrowing money from a friend or family. This wouldn’t be a handout. This would be me hoping to have monetary support from interested listeners or viewers who would want to contribute somehow.

I wouldn’t become upset, or hold others at gun-point for not wanting to support by payment. Some people may support my work by listening, others with money, some with an encouraging word. Support comes in all forms and I am here for it.

I hope this reaches other entrepreneurs/content creators in the world. I want you to know that if you feel shameful, or embarrassed about asking others to support your journey, you shouldn’t be. Your gift is your trade.

It took me a couple of years to realize that there is nothing wrong with asking for help.

Ever.

If you’d like to support my podcast monetarily please click here. If you want to leave an encouraging word or subscribe you can click above as well. Whatever support you’d like to offer I am here to receive it.

I love you all so very much and thank you for listening. Have a happy Saturday.

🥰

Undeniably Yours

I’m so happy.

I published my fifth romance book this week. Just in time for the holidays. I don’t get a lot of reviews, and I don’t think I ever will, but the feeling of accomplishment I get whenever I finish telling a story, a romantic one at that, gives me such pleasure. I live so much in my head I fear that it’s where I prefer to be most of the time. Anyway, I wanted to let anyone know who is still following this poetry blog that it’s available on Amazon. And that my author website is finished as well. I will leave the information below.

Happy Holidays, and stay safe.

-N

Undeniably Yours by Nicole Renee: https://amzn.to/3mu8JLO

Official Author Website: https://bit.ly/3H4XyRI

The Unseen

I wonder,

If you ever think be-yonder.

I stand in front of this mirror,

Unsure of this face in front of me.

I think I’ve lost the sight.

Something’s not right.

M’aimeras-tu si tu voyais le vrai moi ?

Just a question,

Or if you’re afraid, it could be a suggestion.

-N

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The Great Fall

Once it was a beacon of light,

This shining hill dressed as a white knight.

Now it only brings hate,

Laying prone on the ground, and heavy as a freight.

I find myself mystified,

maybe naive, and wide-eyed as a victorian bride.

How far did we backslide?

When did I lose my greatest ally?

The contradictions are clear,

yet we still clamor and believe all because of fear.

I stand here,

Waiting, helpless, praying that you’ll appear.

Isn’t that right dear?

Won’t you loan me a few of your tears?

You see I’ve ran out,

When humanity chose the coward’s way and took the bailout.

There are no rebels here.

They lament, yet still adhere.

It’s troubling to see this clear!

Maybe it’s too soon,

Maybe it’s too late,

But soon you’ll see the weight,

compliances that morphed into mandates.

-N

Gemini

I’m caught within time.

I’m caught between two lives.

The face I portray to the world, and you.

The face I give when it’s just me.

When I look in the mirror.

I’m afraid.

That you won’t like what I have to say.

That you won’t like what I feel.

That you may find me too sensitive or to passionate.

That I may not be enough.

Of course I could mold for you.

See the instant dislike and become whoever you desire.

But I fear I may lose my heart in the process.

I fear.

I fear.

I fear.

-N

Eight Days Left…..

Until my book drops.

I’m so nervous, yet excited. The cover is amazing, and the team I worked with is awesome. I look forward to hearing what people think of the story. It will be available at Barnes and Noble’s website, and Amazon. I’m so stunned that everything came together so well, that I have nothing else to write/add today. Love you all, and until later.

-NR

It always seems impossible until it’s done. -Nelson Mandela

 

Book Cover

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What do you think?

I’ve been busy this week. Schoolwork has kicked into high gear, and my book promotions have been going well. This Thursday I will receive my manuscript, all professionally edited.

(And by that I mean copy editing, line editing, critique, and everything else that was wrong with my story)

Afterward, I will have my book professionally formatted- and it will be ready on October 21. Plenty of time before my release date to make any changes or have a couple more heart-attacks from anxiety.

This has been a pleasurable journey. I learned so much, met some great and interesting people, and have discovered a community just waiting for the next terribly romantic historical fiction. I do hope you guys enjoy it. Again, we’ve still got time before it’s released, (Check the banner) but I want to start thinking in the mindset of it already being released to the public. (EEEK!)

I love you all.

-NR

The Earl’s Secret Treasure

The title of my book, by the way. I am pleased to announce that my very own historical romance novel will be available to purchase on November 1st. As I have mentioned previously, I cannot wait to see the response. I am hopeful for positive feedback, simply because I love the genre, and I want to contribute something to it. I love to write. Anything and everything, and the chance to be able to do this full-time is a dream. Anyways, my book blurb is below, and my cover reveal will be tomorrow. EEEEEK! So excited!

Shout-out to Enticing Journey Book Promotions…EEEEEEK!!

✷Blurb✷
Karina Bardot, daughter to the Duke and Duchess of Essex has always been overlooked. Plain, and too involved in her novels, she was resigned to being a spinster for the rest of her life.No man could possibly match the heroes she read about in her quiet time, so, she was content with letting her books be the loves of her life.
Quite thrilled with it actually.
That was until her parents informed her of her sudden betrothal to a Marquis. She barely even knew of her own engagement, and now she is to meet her future husband? Now Karina’s forced to endure a season filled with endless parties, mind-numbing conversation, and dress shopping. Something she detested more than ballrooms.

Captain Cole Black asked his men to do one job. Find the woman who stole expensive fabrics from their trade deal, and return to the ship posthaste. He was leery of being in London for too long, as having left the high society life, with its obligations and stifling rules of decorum long ago. Cole was confident that his men would return with the woman responsible for their delay, and continue on their journey. Only his men returned with someone else entirely. And the ship had already left port.
Drat.
Will Karina finally get the excitement, and adventure she’s been craving all along? And Will Cole finally realize that his greatest treasure is not lost at sea?

 

What do you think? Too cheesy? To romantic? Let me know.

=)

-NR