An Entrapment

My love, I have tried with all my being
to grasp a form comparable to thine own,
but nothing seems worthy;

I know now why Shakespeare could not
compare his love to a summer’s day.
It would be a crime to denounce the beauty
of such a creature as thee,
to simply cast away the precision
God had placed in forging you.

Each facet of your being
whether it physical or spiritual
is an ensnarement
from which there is no release.
But I do not wish release.
I wish to stay entrapped forever.
With you for all eternity.
Our hearts, always as one.

– Anthony Kolos – (Can be found here: http://bit.ly/1jLJ9cC)

Wasn’t that beautiful?

Hey don’t judge. I’ve been in a mushy mood ever since watching About Last Night (OMG PLEASE GO SEE THAT!), and the last performance of the original cast of glee perform for the final tim in the WMHS choir room. (I can’t help it.)

Anyways, how’s it going world? Ever since my last blog post I told myself that I would be writing up here more frequently so it wouldn’t seem that I was abandoning you all. Plus writing up here gives me some peace of mind.

I know, crazy right?

Okay so what have I been doing these past couple of days? Oh, a whole bunch. Lots of stuff, I can’t even keep track of.

“Ahem” Not.

If by busy you mean reading tons of Fan Fiction (I’m addicted I can’t help it) and historical romance then you are correct. This is the reason I can’t have any free time. I pick up more things that I become addicted to. You’re probably thinking, Nikki, what are doing with yourself?

Well I don’t even know at this moment. I practically live at the gym, and on a laptop. I’ve applied to tons of starter jobs. Now I just have to wait and see where the cards lay. I guess this is what they talk about as you’re getting ready to leave school. It’s a good thing  that i’m considering grad school.

Well world, I guess this is end of my incessant chatter i’ve subjected you to for the past 5 min. If you’re restless, waiting for something big to happen I hope this reaches you. I hope that you know you’re not alone, and that soon something big will break. I can feel it, and I hope you can too.

-N 😉

Hello world!

As you know, mwah graduated in December. (yay!) Along with graduation I also had to move back home, (sucks, but not really) and take a break. Although those four + years away from home gaining an education and learning who I was as a person were really beneficial to building me, and seeing firsthand how I operate without my family, left me exhausted.

In every way.

Home with a new shiny degree for the new year and what did I do? Hole up in my parents home lay my head on my mom’s chest eat her homemade cookies, and cry.

How disgusting. ( I’m a G darn it!)

Anyways, the reason I have been M.I.A. in the blogosphere is simple:

I needed rest.

It was scary the amount of rest I needed. My, “resting” period as I like to call it, could be compared to a baby. But instead of being fed food, and getting my diaper changed constantly, I needed intellectual inspiration.

BecauseI lost it.

Me the writer. After two weeks I thought that I would be able to sit at my laptop and type away. but I was at a loss. The first time, since I knew what writing was, I was frozen. I closed my laptop and said nothing for about another week. Now I know to some this wouldn’t seem like a big deal. And all I can tell you is that it felt like a big deal simply because I’ve always had something to say.

All the time.

To be muted, blocked, and unable to write something simply because of yourself can be a scary concept. So what did I do to try and fix the situation?

Watch the news.

I actually started thinking about current event quizzes I took in my journalism classes to see if something would spark. However I was lost. But after I stopped thinking about it, and actually relaxed,  went to the movies and genuinely laughed ideas started to form. I was still pretty wary, thinking that when I sat at my laptop they would disappear, so I stayed away. a couple of months later and here we are.

Today, I started laughing because I realized that maybe my experiences of my writers block should be shared. Real talented writers are able to convey there feelings, and real life in a unconventional way. I figured I would give it a shot and share my experiences with you. Maybe that’s the point; not everything in life goes according to plan. But it’s up to us to find the reason why and find an alternative way to navigate around what looks like, and impossible situation.

=)