Restless

The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn.  ~David Russell

Good evening world!

I’ve been feeling a little restless. Even though it’s the beginning of the week, i’m ready for it to be over. I decided to ditch school today, and head to the gym on campus. I’m glad I did.

Being able to beat all your frustrations on a treadmill is not only a way to relieve stress, but instill a sense of peace and happiness within yourself. It can also tire you out so you’re not forced to think anymore.

Which is something that I needed.

I found out that I have only six classes left to take in order to graduate! that made me really ecstatic! It also made me want to get on the ball with my future. I talked earlier about applying for the Fleishman-Hillard internship. I still am doing that. But i’m also thinking about Grad School.

I’m going to talk with one of the directors for applying to the school. I am so nervous; I do know however, that God has a plan for me, I just have to find the right one and pray for wisdom on picking the right one.

=)

N

 

Worst Food…Best Night Ever

Do today what others won’t so you can live tomorrow like others can’t. -Unknown

So on Wednesday my sister and I decide to be adventurous. After I come home from the gym, I see what looks like a taco truck in the front of our apt. complex. I tell me sister and she says that we should eat that instead of cooking dinner. I agree so we walk out to the car.

As we get closer it looks kind of suspicious but what do we care? there cheap prices and they make big burritos. As we purchase our food, and take it into our house we take a bite. at first we both agree it tastes good. However as we keep eating it becomes horrible to stomach.

My sister and I then start to laugh uncontrollably, because it tastes so bad. we decided to make our own food, and we through the burritos away. it’s not like we couldn’t go and get something else. it’s the experience.

-N

Always cherish and make a bad situation turn into something good. It’s apart of life.

No Matter What

Hello.

It’s a friday night, and i’m at home. normally I would be mad because hey, it’s FRIDAY and you should be out partying, enjoying life, and trying to find exciting things to get into with your ride or die buddy.

“Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy.”
― Anne Frank

But not tonight.

Tonight, seven days after my birthday i’m getting gifts that I truly want. Nothing ever compares to gifts that your family gets you. Last year, for my 21st birthday, my only and younger sister gave me my real first piece of technology.

A Kindle.

I had never really had anything like this before. I would look at, stare, and dream of the day when I would have money to give for that type of reader. But I didn’t have to.

Because she did.

I think it’s not the Kindle itself that made my birthday special (Which, by the way almost put me in tears) but the fact that she listened and was able to get something I never thought I could ever have.

This year, my sister didn’t have much, but she bought me Spartacus Vengeance. One of my favorite television shows, and it had just came out the day before. She kept telling me she didn’t have much, and she hoped i enjoyed it.

I MORE THAN ENJOYED IT!

My Uncle, decided to buy a give me a Mac Book Pro from Apple which I received today in the mail. I really enjoyed this gift, and again it’s the thought that counts.

One thing I have learned in this life and what my parents have told me, is to always be happy. No matter if you didn’t get exactly what you wanted, or the day didn’t go as planned. Just roll with the punches. God obviously wanted you to go through the trials and learn from them.

I hope that this week I did that. That no matter what, I kept the same emotions, and was able to be happy. The truth is, I was actually happy and didn’t have to act. I guess that comes with age.

-N  =)

International Relations…

Why not go out on a limb?  Isn’t that where the fruit is?  ~Frank Scully

 

Good morning world!

My professor, recently sent my classmates an email about a great oppourtunity to apply for a 6-12 month fellowship for an international relations program. She sent it to us roughly a month ago, however I put it off.

Now you might be asking, “FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, WHY NICOLE!!!?”

Well for your information I am SCARED. I say all of these confident things, puff my chest out, and put a little swagger in my gait, showing the world through body language how tough I am.

In all reality, i’m terrified of what the next chapter of my life will be. Being African-American , and a female can be a daunting task. Trying to find a job while at the same time, break a stereotype that has been set by other races about your people since before you were born, is challenging to say the least.

Don’t get me wrong; I refuse to let a stereotype stop my progress, or make me feel inferior. My parents raised me to always be humble, pray and ask God for help in any situation, and to always be proud of who you are no matter the consequences.

So even though i’m shaking as I type this, and re-read the email that was sent to me, I will apply. If circumstances come up, and am unable to accept it, or they skim over my application, then at least I know I gave it my all. If I hit the delete button, then i’ll always wonder if I let a huge opportunity slip through my fingers.

Here it goes….

-N

Decision Making

Good Morning world!

I had a very good weekend. It was my birthday! And not just any birthday, but my 22nd one. I don’t know why it feels as if i’ve stepped into a new arena, but it does. When you turn 21 most people are excited because in the United States  that means you can now drink legally. It also seems to be the age that shows the world, you are real an adult.

I don’t hear much about 22, but I don’t care. it’s my day and i’m taking it.

Along with aging comes the task of figuring out your life, where you plan to go after college, blah blah blah. I know that i’ve been harping about my future plans for a while but I can’t help it. I worry so deal.

Anyways, i’ve always felt that everything will go according to plan. I’ve seen life plans go awry in my friends life and as an observer I have always said, “That couldn’t possibly happen to me.”

I couldn’t have been more wrong.

Things have never been horrible, but the course I thought I would always take has decided to go on a little detour. As long as the job or goal you’ve set for yourself is accomplished, who cares how it gets accomplished?

Hearing my sister excited to be going to the Academy Of Art University In San Francisco next fall, realizing that I will not be renewing my lease in my apartment, knowing that graduation is near, and I’ve got to actually start looking for a job is starting to come to the surface, and it scares me. it excites me, but it also makes you realize that you will be using everything you’ve learned at college, and what your parents taught you in the real world. In a way it’s the ultimate test.

I plan to go into this with my head held high, shoulders squared, and determination in my gait. I know God didn’t bring me this far to fail. Who knows? I may wind up at that Entertainment Public Relations firm somewhere in Los Angeles sooner than you think….;)

Last Nights of Summer…

Yesterday I had fun.

A friend of mine asked me if she wanted to go for a drive. It was 45 minutes away from where we live and she wanted me to meet a family member. I instantly agreed. I wanted to meet her family and not only that, I needed to get away.

Yes it’s only been a week in school but I’m feeling that pull of being done with it all. After 4 years of non-stop school, and work, I actually am feeling tired. I never thought that I would feel this way, but you can’t help how you feel.

Anyways, her family had rented a convertible and let her drive it. We picked up McDonalds, talked politics, what’s going on in the world, and what can we the future do about it.

We talked about songs, mainly How DJ’s are now the title artist instead of the actual singer. (Example Calvin Harris, or David Guetta when Ne-Yo or Usher is singing the song.)

We talked about what we see for our future, and both agreed that while it sounds scary we are excited for the road ahead.

On the way back home we road on the freeway with the top down. I threw my hands in the air and proceeded to just breathe. When we arrived back home we were both quiet but content.

I thanked her for a great night, and promised we’d get together soon. Walking up to my place, I smiled wishing that we could have driven all night.

What Is it about social media networks?

Good morning world!

I told you that I would be posting more now that school had resumed. Everyone needs a break! Recently, I was able to purchase my dream phone; that’s right an iPhone. It’s exciting fun, and all the commercials made me want to have one more. The question is, why did I feel the need to have one so bad?

We all know that new technology is cool and shows us how far we’ve come I’m creating innovative things. The question I often ask myself is, what is wrong with the technology from the previous years if it’s still in good condition?

Over the summer I watched the Associated Press discuss how more Americans were buying technology that came out the previous year instead of the new one. The reason being? Analysts were saying that most people didn’t have the money to keep buying the new one. Others felt why should they throw away a smartphone still in good condition just it couldn’t do one extra app.
I used to think that I’d never have a Face Book account. Then I told myself why bother with Twitter? Then I heard of instagram and thought I really don’t take that many pictures. However I am standing before you today posting on an iPhone updating my status on all said networks I thought I’d never give into.
As Americans we’ve lived without these before? What is making us believe that we can’t live without it? Or are we just choosing to not be without it?

Post first week of school….

Identify what you want and go for it- Anon

Hello world!

I’ve had a very interesting and productive-less summer. (Unless you count spending hours at the gym daily trying to perfect my look.) I went out with friends, spent hours reading romantic books, watching reality television shows, sleeping, and making sure I stayed out of the heat. Apart from being ridiculously lazy and borderline trifling I actually examined what I want to do with my life after I graduate. (which hopefully will be this year.) I thought about Grad school, what I hope to find as an entry level job, and how I can still  be myself.

I reconnected with God and learned some valuable lessons which I hope to grow from.

I learned to be calm, carry on and trust my instinct. These lessons and the relaxation through the summer helped get me through an intense first week of school. It felt as if i’d been out of touch with reality and this was my first test back into life. I know that keeping a level head is one way to ensure a sound mind and peace.

I hope that those of you who read this post and are attending any school that you have a productive school year. I hope those of you who are just returning to work are accomplishing goals you’ve set for yourself. I hope those of you who are just reading and looking for some inspiration are able to find it.

I wish the best for all and let the games begin!

N =)